I have chronic, treatment refractory depression. I was definitely a depressed child starting at least by the age of 6; many of my few early memories from before that are of situations in which I was acutely anxious. As the field has come to recognize that children can be depressed, I have wondered how my life might have been different for some form of early therapeutic intervention. But I also know that a contributing factor to my depression was that my parents were people who would never have admitted that their child had a psychiatric problem or sought professional help. I was not an acting out child, I was instead overly docile. How do we educate pediatricians & teachers to recognize the signs of depression in children and encourage them to tell parents when I child needs help? A pediatrician made my situation worse by attributing one of my symptoms to simple laziness.